THE HEART, A LITTLE FOOL!

EVERYONE'S HEART TROUBLES THEM AT TIMES, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN IT'S A SIGNAL TO GIVE UP ON THINGS! COME ON GUYS, YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT

 OUR HEART IS A LITTLE FOOL!!

THE HEART, A LITTLE FOOL!

The bright sunrays awkwardly tickled my face as I wriggled out of my bed. The chilled air coming in through the window and the early dawn sky made me feel sleepy. Anyway, picking up my phone I gave a shout, “Oh shit! 7:00 am! How long have I been thinking in bed?” running about the whole house to find m things scattered here and there I got ready for school. Oh! The same monotony again, go through the day all alone! Oh it’s not that I don’t have friends, I have, many……. Or some..?  Uff I do have friends! And a relationship too, a loving cordial relationship! “Aisha! Whatcha doing? Go to school you idiot!” I heard my elder brother shouting. “yes bro! I’m leaving.’ And I left for school.

Well guessed, I was late…… way too late!

I drove through the not so busy traffic, in deep thought. Thinking about the fight we had (I hope you know whom “we” implies to!). I saw the school bus crossing into the sector of my school and thinking it to be a good chance I followed! I parked my scooty in the market facing my school and turned to cross the road to my school.

As I reached the middle of the road, a shock followed , a car coming at great velocity screeched and stopped just an inch in front of me!! Oh good lord! Your friction saved me! I sighed, traumatized at this tasteful meeting with death. I ran inside the school, tears filled in my eyes and face still in horror, dumbstruck I walked into my class. Oh lord, I was late. The teacher gave me a dirty look.

‘Aisha, be ready for humiliation!’ said my heart. However ma’am didn’t say anything.

She started teaching as I took my seat. THOUGHTS! They can drive you into trouble. Thinking about all crap around I was brought to present by a shout, “AISHA! What do you think you are doing?” It was ma’am or shall I say, a devil in disguise of my teacher. She started scolding me as if all the mistakes I had made were to be paid for with high interest rates right then!

‘Congrats Aisha, a public humiliation, you should be proud!’ taunted my heart.  Why does my heart talk to me at all, it makes me feel depressed by such nasty comments! I sat down when she had ended, face going green with disgust!

 

 

I came back home opening the door as it made a horrible sound and stepping in I could feel chilly winds blowing towards me. The house was haunted with emptiness. I changed and sat to study. ‘ you moron!  Why do you even try? You can’t live through life!’ came another super opinion of my heart. All I knew was I needed to talk to….. someone.

I picked my phone and texted Sushant. (My mr.special), and waited.

Listening to songs kept waiting for a reply. Half an hour gone and I waited, one hour gone by and I waited!

Eventually I gave up hope. ‘why do you even think that someone can love you? You are so impossible!’ (now you know it’s none other than my heart’s voice, so negative!)

I switched on the television and started watching Big Boss. My brother wasn’t to return until next day and parents were out of town as usual! In short the haunted house of emptiness had only me inside! All alone, terribly alone. I slipped into my bed switching of the television and closed my eyes for the deadly night to run away and bring in another monotonous day of my miserable life!

 

Suddenly my phone rang.

SUSHANT CALLING……

I picked up. 

“Hey sweety, I’m so sorry for not getting back to you. I was  at tution.” He said.

“no problem.”

“what happened dear? Why so low? Is everything alright?”

“yes, I’m just in shock.”

‘why? What happened?”

“I ….. I almost died today! The thought is haunting me!” and I told him all that had happened that morning.

“it feels like no one loves me!’ I added.

“oh! You stupid little girl! How can you even say that?”

“I don’t know my heart says that to me!”

“ohho! You fool, I’m there always for you!”

“haanji”

“now cheer up little girl, I love you so so so much idiot!”

“I love you too!!” it came from my heart, first positive sentence since last 24 hours!

It felt good, suddenly the coldness disappeared, suddenly all I felt inside was warmth, and the shining sun of love appeared to be rising. I hung up saying good night.

A lesson I learnt that day, our cute little heart is a just a little fool because irrespective of how awful you might be feeling, a small “I love you” and feeling of care can melt it, it’s as simple as that because all it needs is love which can charge it up and get it going. There is no feeling called loneliness, there is only love!